Sunshine

Every time I try to peep into my future I fail to see beyond the blurred picture of my own imagination which lies far from truth. Ever tried prophesying the next hour of your life? We take for granted our imagination and carry on with our chores expecting what we expect to happen. One untoward incident and we realize how helpless we are at the hands of fate. How we wish just for a hint of the future. And in the pursuit there comes numerology, astrology, palmistry and all those sciences without any basis but strong believe to be true.





Every moment comes with an uncertainty of its follower. This uncertainty forms the base of all emotions - surprise, shock, joy, grief et al and that’s the beauty of life… enigmatic, perplexing, and equivocal yet filled with curiosity and anxiety.

Like a dot we stand ignorant. The past is known so is the present but future lies in the oblivion. For the sake of realization just stand still for a moment where you are and think of the present… think of questions like what brought you here to this point? What are you doing at this point? Answers to these will answer the uncertainty of what will you do from this point. But is the answer the exact thing you are going to do? There may come a thousand options as alternative to what you think.

Consider yourself as a dot in a blank sheet of paper… what do you see? In the vicinity of your existence there are certain glimpses of possibilities to go. Try seeing beyond these glimpses and you will find thousand oceans – vast and void.

Uncertain” - that’s what I have defined life to be. Expectations and hopes beget out of this uncertainty. As I had said the human emotions arise out of the result of this. Often I have come across freinds claiming to be free of the mire of hopes and expectations.

This freedom gives them happiness- the power to face the “uncertainties”. As they say any broken hopes give you grief. Logical enough to conclude there shouldn’t be any hopes…

let things come and let people accept them with open arms. Acceptance impregnates tolerance in you. Tolerance gives you power.

To expect is human and to be human is to be natural. Any deviation to nature isn’t a great idea. When I say life is a dot and the future is uncertain I don’t say the uncertainties shouldn’t be expected.

To sail through the vast ocean a ship needs wind. The dot is the ship. The dot is you. Stop the expectations and you will lose your wind.

Where will you sail then? One fine day the ocean will swallow you… this isn’t why you were born for.

A passive life is no life. When you make your eyes see beyond the horizon you might find a direction to move. There will be few dots here and there to give you a goal. It’s true that your vision can turn out to be a mirage… the line you draw towards a goal may prove futile.

You may have to revert back or might have come a full circle to where you were. You meet what you fear… Disappointment! Nevertheless there is the silver lining… you are no more a dot!

There has been an extension to you to form a line – a knowledge line. You know a wrong path you would better avoid henceforth. You know to sail in the ocean. See the other side of the coin. You reach your goal and it wasn’t a mirage. The journey wasn’t futile. You are happy now…

more happy than you would have been as a dot without direction. The line you have drawn is still a knowledge line. You know the right path now. You know how to sail in the ocean and you know what your worth is. Either way it’s a win situation. So why fear disappointment when the prize is always yours.

As you grow from a mere dot the ocean around you grows too and in a much bigger scale. You turn down to a dot again… seeking ways to proceed, expecting certain things and viewing the ever growing ever vast ocean.

Life will continue to be a dot… it’s on you to keep the hopes and expectations on and keep traveling.

=)

Random Thoughts while at work

When I was a kid, there was no doubt in my parents’ mind that I would one day be a lady that they would love me to be. I’ve always asked questions of why the sky is blue, how the rain is formed or how people came to be. But like most kids my age, when asked what I wanna be when I grow up, I always say... a lawyer, a policewoman or a teacher (depending on my mood)......



However, when I reached high school, I confirmed what my parents knew all along.........

If I weren't in this field, I probably had been (or would be in my next life) …

A Psychologist

There’s just something about people’s brains that fascinates me. The way it works, how it processes information and its ability to store memory. I’ve always wondered why some people turn out to be geniuses while others seem to be idiots, and what makes crazy people take pleasure in having sadistic tendencies while I can’t even harm a bug and would faint at the sight of blood. The brain works in mysterious ways and I would have loved unlocking its mysteries.

A Writer

I’ve always had this vision of me in my bikini or beachwear (my work attire) lounging under a big umbrella, writing a magazine article or a book somewhere in the beach (my office) while sipping my favorite drinks . In real life, writing might not be as glamorous as I try to make it sound, but I’ve always like it. It’s how I usually express my thoughts and pour my sentiments. Well, here somehow helping me fulfill my dream of being one… if only I could get paid doing it!

A Travel correspondent

This is one of the best jobs in the world. It’s like getting paid for taking a vacation! You explore the world, see the sights and then talk about it….

A Kindergarten teacher

I adore kids (until they’re 13 years old! ;-) ). In this highly competitive world where a lot of people lie to each other and at times commit evil against one another, a child’s innocence and inherently good will is refreshing. It bolsters my sometimes-wavering faith in humanity. An environment surrounded by children reminds me of how it used to be when the world was simpler and life was worry-free. And kids have this natural thirst for knowledge that makes teaching so enjoyable! To me, being able to help kids into better people and help them create a better future is one of the most rewarding and honorable jobs of all.